When you're trying to get pregnant, it's a like a little part of you really hopes that none of your friends gets pregnant in that time period. And then, it happens. Either someone calls or stops by to share the news with you - they are pregnant!
For me, it's my sister. This will be her third baby and I'm trying to be happy for her. It's hard though. Immediately it hit me that she got pregnant fast, without even really trying and me, I can't seem to get a positive result with fertility tracking. *warning - major whining coming* It's just not fair! Not fair!! I really, really want a baby, more than anything and for her, it's just too easy. One time. Literally, one sex act and she's pregnant. No peeing on a stick, no tracking, no temperature taking or sex on schedule. *sigh*
I just need some time to get over the jealousy. But it's more than jealousy. It's tears and the feeling of desperation mixed with something that feels like resignation. Should I keep trying? Can I take being disappointed every month? All I know right now is that this stinks.
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